The Hidden Weblog

I hate the lying, the cheating the screwing over.

But I can pray that something will change.

Time to start uploading the insurance.

Time for them to be embarassed!

I have to be blessed with the coolest, sweetest friends.

They just live way far away from me.

But I'm about ready to meet two of them for lunch here in the Hub. I can almost always count on Dalby for anything.

***Pagerank Smagerank***

My PageRank according to my friends have gone down on Google, but I've pretty well have written off
Google as well as Internet Explorer. My browser of choice is now and probably forever will be Firefox. I listened to my SEO advisor and see what that got me. I'm probably going to take down soem of the superflorous ads and just never look at IE again.

Life blog down from a 5 to a 3. Poker Blog from a 4 to a 3. Hmm. Fuck em and feed em fishsticks.

***Continuing of life changes***

Mom is coming in to inspect the damage that I have done and approve tile selection. I tried to get Dad up here so we can do some painting, but he is "busy working on projects". His loss. Mom and I will go out to eat on him!

We're going to meet my friend Jeff Krueger from Carpet Solutions and he going to help us get tile at a reasonable rate. I really don't care about what it looks like except no burnt orange or maroon. Those are automatic vetos.

***Writing ***
I've been writing offline just jotting down ideas and concepts for new books and short stories. I've found my best stories come from sitting and just watching the world around me. Damon and I saw a fight of a boyfriend and girlfriend out in the parking lot of the Cotton Patch Cafe and without a beat I just started to tell Damon what they were saying even though we were across the street inside Chick-Fil-A. It's just something I do. Sometimes it works, sometimes in the words of Surflexus… I've got nothing. BUt Pushmonkey72 has sent me some books to help my character development process along.

***McG better watch out***
Last night I worked with some software to put some of the photos and movies I took from Okie-Vegas and The 2008 Ferlin Husky Memorial Drinking Festival together. Still working on just making it look good. Nothing to note as of yet, but it is good to try and develop skills and talents I've never tried before.

*** A special note to Bam-Bam ***
1. Because you live in Canada.
2. Your heart is always in the right place.
3. Because you've found the true love in your life and you spoil her.
4. You never give up.
5. Just Because.

Thanks

***On the movie kick***
I've seen Hancock, Hellboy, Forgetting Sarah Marshall and Batman in the last two weeks. I go through these kicks where I just want to sit and watch movies and be told a story. Then I'm off to not watch a movie for 10 months. Weird huh?

***Kids***
I've come to the conclusion that it is too late to move to Indiana to be "Daddoo" in the sense that the kids have grown past certain things. However I've come to the conclusion that I will be changing the things that we do when I go and see them or when they see me. Thus more science museums for Shelby (who can't get enough science) and more parks and baseball games for Ryan. Also I am going to work and find ways to get Shelby to come see me and give her some one on one time with Daddy with Ryan starting when he can fly by himself.

***Misc***
Finances Have been tight lately as I finally paid off another bill and I am investing into paying off the house.
I've been reading an Andrew Tobias book before I goto sleep at night and I see the mistakes I have made in the past.

I'm trying to improve myself and my surroundings. Thus I am going on a kick of pruning my possessions. If I haven't used it in six months or have no desire to give it to the kids will be either sold, donated or thrown away.

***Final Thoughts***

I'm changing, and it is slow. But I see the mistakes I have made and I see that some of the five things that my friend told me are true. I just have to make the changes to fix what I can. I'm opening up in some areas while shutting others down.

Before I took care of others before me because I thought that in the end I would be taken care of by others. That was a mistake on my part. Now I take care of myself first in the pursuit of helping others. That way we are BOTH covered.

Lunch with friends, working out tonight trying to bike another 10 miles on my way to biking a marathon.

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Nothing to worry about, nothing to see.

My eyes have been opened by looking for what I thought I needed.

But I just realized that there is only three things I need,

and two of them are 1085.44 miles away.

The other one thing, well I can't tell you that.

That's for you to find for yourself!

Yup, just had, within TEN minutes, two people ask me to borrow $1000 and $500. Or my favorite line, "If you don't have the money I can do a payday loan with you cosigning it".

NO, HELL NO, GO TO HELL NO!

I am not an ATM!

Beg someone else.

"Neither a borrower nor a lender be;
For loan oft loses both itself and friend,
And borrowing dulls the edge of husbandry." – Hamlet

Sorry folks, except for family I just can't do it.

yup, I have a hidden blog.

Yup I’ve had it for awhile.

Sometimes I post on here what I want to say and what I can’t say in front of people I hate, love and work with.

Sometimes having a private life is nice.  I’ve never had one.  My life has always been under examination.  Maybe just hiding from one and all in here is the best thing.  If you want in, you have to be really close.  Nothing against you if you don’t get all the way in. 

No one gets five minutes today.